Oh no! Where did the WOMAN in me go?

Shopping.

It was ingrained in me the minute I was born.  The minute I got my first job, and got my first paycheck to the minute I walked into my first mall.  Literally, every day off I had, I’d be at a mall spending my hard earned money.

But then…

I grew up, and I had bills to pay.  I had a home to take care of.  I had mouths to feed.  And the mall trips became less and less.  The clothes became less and less new.  And the accessories became non existent.

Especially the past few years.  Bills were climbing higher, money was coming in less.  And then there was an adjustment period too.  Recovering from a divorce, recovering from a life change.  And just recovering in general.

Somewhere along the way, I lost the woman in me.  The one that would browse through clothes.  The one who would peek at the latest shoes coming out.  The one that loved to look at necklaces.  That girl disappeared.  But where did she go? How does one just pay no mind to clothes or accessories or anything woman related?

The truth was this:  Looking at all that stuff just made me depressed.  It was a reminder of all the things I couldn’t have at that time in my life.  A reminder of what I use to have too.  The luxuries that I honestly use to take for granted.  So, instead, I paid no mind to it.  I had to focus my mind elsewhere.

But tonight, I finally had my shopping spree.  I went out to the mall, and shopped my heart out.  I found some GREAT deals too.  Browsing through the stores came back to me so naturally.  I loved looking at the latest styles, however, this year’s BRIGHT colors just don’t fit me.  I’ve never been able to pull those colors off!!!!  Kudos to those of you that can.

It doesn’t matter what I may or may not have come home with.  All that matters is that I finally took myself out for an evening, and enjoyed the luxuries of being a woman again.